Friday, February 27, 2009

the road less traveled

so, it has been nearly a month {ack!} since I have posted. I dont know if anyone really reads this, or really cares to...but, for me....i love to write it. It truly does help me sort out all of my feelings and lets me amuse myself by telling funny stories, and I would surely forget if I did not write them down somewhere!

A few months ago I wrote this post about the possiblity of moving....and alas, it shall come to pass. We will be packing up our home of the last five years, the only home that 3 of my kids every remember, and we will once again, head north. At least it is only a little north. I know we arent moving across country or anything, but I did not expect it to be quite this hard. I have told my sweet hubby that this is the one place that I will be truly sad to leave. Not that I am not a little excited about the move. I cant wait for us to all be together as a family again. And, I am excited about moving into an old beautiful, charming house. I am excited about country living and a slower pace. Not having to work full time (the biggest yay for me!) Taking the summer off and spending it with my kids. I am excited about all these things, but I will say this. You just cannot do better than the people you meet in Texas. {with a few exceptions :) } My family has met so many wonderful, loving, giving, forgiving, geniune people here, that I already know that as I pull away from this state, my heart will hurt.

Telling my sis in law was the worst. I knew she would be so sad, as am I. We have developed a true, deep and loving relationship over the past four years that she has lived here, and I can honestly say that, I would move to any state a hundred times over if that is what it took for us to be where we are today. I love her dearly and I will miss her greatly. {the good thing is, I am moving 12 miles from her parents, so she will be coming to visit alot!}

Our church family is the other hard part. I have never been so wrapped up in the people that I worship with as I am here. I am going to miss every part of it. The people are amazing at our church and since the first time hubby and I walked thru the doors, each with a baby carrier, trying to find a space in the back so we would not disturb anyone with our 5 month old twins, we knew we had friends for life! It was amazing the connection we felt with the people there. They had a sincerity about them that was almost palpable. Several people from the platform made their way straight back to us as soon as service was over, in a rush to introduce themselves and make us feel welcome. I will never forget that. ~sigh~ I could continue to remeniss all day long, but I fear it will just make me sad. It will have to suffice for me to say that, its a good thing my sis and brother in law still live here, or some people I know would be getting phone calls of warning that they are about to be invaded by a crazy family of seven....whats for dinner?!?

My oldest girl, A, is having a bit of a struggle. I am not suprised. I remember moving when I was her age. I was angry, hurt, scared. But, I got through it, and she is such a well adjusted girl, I know she will too. It will take some time, I am sure, but, I am also absolutely certain, she will flourish.

Well, not to cut this off too short, but I am trying to keep it from being to long! I must run for now. Posts might be few for the next few months. We wont move until school is out, so at least I have plenty of time to pack, but I also know that summer will be here before I know it.

I will try to keep everyone in the loop, and in a few months, maybe pics of a new house! Pray for us....we will surely need it!


Corrie said...

I read it! I know we haven't visited you that much in recent months, but I know it will feel like you are farther away! I just look forward to more times like we had at Thanksgiving; visiting, laughing and more laughing. I know this is hard. I'm praying for you and your kids. I love you!

Jennie said...

I know how hard it is for you to leave Texas, but I have to say I'm feeling a bit selfish, and can't wait for you to be soooo close to me!!! ;)