so, i just thought i'd write some quick thoughts about my girls. if you have read any of my blogs, you probably know that i have 5 of them. They are truly a joy. they are also alot of work. sometime i wonder...why did God give me so many girls? and how come no boys. I have come to realize that i have such a wonderful mom. she taught me so much about being a mom and a wife and a woman in general. she is such a blessing to me. even now, in my own adulthood she give such wonderful advice and support. i am no where near perfect, and as much as my mom taught me through her words and mostly by her actions and the way she lived her life, there are so many lessons that you cannot truly learn until you actually live through them. But, I truly believe that God has given me these girls to raise up to be morally sound, Godly women. I believe that it is my life's work to do my best to teach these 5 beautiful girls to be Godly mothers, and wives. I want my kids to learn humility, patience, compassion, and to be obedient. I want them to be servants...and not in the slave-mentality kind of way, but servants to their fellow man....to their own children, to their husbands. I want them to find peace and contentment in their submission. I want them to be leaders in their submission. That might sound like an oxymoron, but it is truly not. We cannot lead until we are able to serve. I believe that I lead more in my submission than in any other area. If I can submit to my husband, to the other authority in my life...then I am leading my children into a life of servanthood. If you are spiritual, you might already understand this way of thinking. If you are thinking...WHAT? the heck is she talking about???? I hope that you can learn in your life, that you can do more good by serving those around you than trying hard to "lead" others by being pushy or bossy. I have learned one lesson lately, that I am happier when I am not so busy trying to defend myself and boss people around, than when I am able to sit back and listen to what someone is trying to say to me with their heart, and not necessarily their words.

Now, i know i said this was about my girls and it looks like its mostly about me, but truly, it is about them....what i do is what they will emulate. I want them to get the good stuff. And they will....one of them....the oldest, is already on her way. I am so proud of her. she is the most giving, understanding, polite, and generous child i know. she is so proud of her love for christ,and is willing to share it always. I have had more compliments on her behavior than i could have ever thought imaginable. Now, i have the other four to raise up to learn to be this way. i am excited about this opportunity. what a journey.

today is a new day

It is, and it's going to be a good one. I know in my last blog, i kinda went on about myself and being lazy.....I guess thats ok to do every once in a while. But, not too often, and certainly not consecutively...did i spell that right?

I am feeling energized and giving today. I made breakfast this morning, did some (more) laundry, cleaned the living room, called my mom, checked my email, got the husband and two kids off to work and school...all before 9am! yeah! lol...i know lots of moms do so much more that that every day, but for someone who normally sits and drinks two cups of coffee and watches Good Morning America before I do anything other than getting the three that need to leave out the door, I guess I'm not doing too bad today!

Just want to leave you with this quick work of encouragement. Live every day like it is your last. You've head this before, but in truth, we can all talk about changing, and doing better, and being better...but if its just talk....well, you get the picture. I heard today that in the hebrew language the number 8 means new beginnings. And its 2008, so what better time than now to start? Right. None! I'll keep you posted.

well, just thought i'd post again....its been a while.

I love reading other people's blogs. I actually spent a large portion of my day doing that very thing. a waste of time? maybe. maybe not. I might actually learn something. well...I might. who knows? but the fact remains that sometimes, no matter how great your life is, its kind of fun to escape your own for someone else's. I sat here today with five kids and a husband running around me, asking for favors, wanting me to get up (how dare they?) and fix them food. Hey, I am sitting here not eating...why cant they do the same? All they while, I just want them to all take a very long nap and leave me alone for a while.

Not sure why, but I have those days occasionally. I just want them all to HUSH!!!! Find something to do and leave me in peace. I want to dissapear in a good book, but I finished the one I was reading, and dont have a new one yet. Not feeling like watching anything on tv, and i've already taken a nap! No, I am not depressed. Yes, I love my husband and my kids, beyond my own life. But today....I just want to take the day off. I dont want to get up and feed you....grab an apple or a string cheese out of the fridge. You can get your own sippie cup of milk, cant you? Geez...your two and a half! Its about time to help yourself! These are the silly thoughts running thru my mind today. My hubby...sweet man that he is.....started off today by telling me to get up off the couch and "fix my breakfast, woman!" Ha!! I just gave him "the look." He fixed his own breakfast. Later, I told him that it was probably just pms, but he was on his own today. He actually apologized for bothering me and quietly ate his breakfast. LOL! That makes me sound horrible.......we dont have that kind of relationship. Usually, I love doing things for him....just not today. And, without another word...he understood. And left me alone. For the entire day. Without getting angry. Wow. I love him. He gave up his typical saturday afternoon nap to let me have one, and he fed himself, and he fed the kids. I love him.

And, the best part. After a day of doing absolutely nothing.....I dont feel guilty, and tomorow, I am sure I will be completely refreshed and ready to be mom and wife again. (I hope;p)

so, just thought i'd post a thought today...I have been consumed with my relationships lately. Partly because I spoke last weekend at a mother, daughter, sister "tea" at church and was doing a little research and prayer on the subject. But it got me thinking about my own relationships and just a quick observation. Since its pretty much proven that our relationships are the most important think to most people...as far as what they say, why is it that our relationships are the first thing we take for granted? Whether it is our relationship with God, our spouse, our children, or our friends....when things are going well, we just let them slide. maybe its because we know they will be there when we need them...but the bigger question is, are we there for them when they need us? Are we in tune with them enuf to know??? Sometimes I am not. I hate to say it, but I get so wrapped up in my own little world (inside my home) that i am oblivious to the lives of those who are "most important" to me. I hate that about myself. This is one thing i need to work on. But it is more than just being able to be there for my friends, etc....it is about balance. That is the key I think. So, this is what i want to work on. Balance. I want to have that in my life. I think that will make my world spin in a nice even rotation and not in spurts like it is now. Wanna try it with me??? Give me some imput on what works for you....I'd sure like to get some fresh, new ideas!

quickly....

just wanted to say that I am hanging in there.....are you????? Fighting fatigue, not feeling well, my husband not feeling well, and a few of my kids not feeling well......I might not be winning this battle, but the war is far from over!

Someday I am going to conquer the battle of being a woman/wife/mom/friend. Our poor husbands have it hard. So do we. They must bear the responisbility of their entire family on their shoulders....we must be the backbone to keep those shoulders standing tall. Their identity is built in their careers and what they accomplish. We lose our identities in what we do for everyone else. But I think that in God's perfect plan, we can do all these things that are on our "to do" lists without losing ourselves. It is my personal goal, as a wife and a mom of 5 beautiful daughters, to figure this out and live it out in front of my children to show them that they can truly have it all. Of course I believe in sacrifice. But I dont want to sacrifice my relationship with God to have one with my husband. Nor my relationship with my husband to have one with my children. You get the point. My life is hectic and crazy, but I love it. I will keep you posted!