come and gone....

so, i had another birthday. Praise the Lord! Glad to be alive.
My 19 year old babysitter, that is more like a daughter/friend...well, she is more like a daughter...she is my friend. Anyway, she asked me the other day if she would ever truly feel her age. She is about to turn 20, and that realization feels strange to her. I think when you are a teenager, you expect turning 20 to be some amazing transformation from still feeling like a kid to being a mature, self reliant adult overnight. I just laughed. And then I told her that....I'm 36 years old. I have been married twice. I have five children. I have not lived in my parents house for 18 years. I have my own car, my own house, my own yard to take care of, dishes to wash, toilets to clean, dog to feed......you get the idea. And still....somehow, when I look in the mirror, I still see a 17 year old girl!!! Sometimes when I take a good, long look at my life, sometimes I still wonder, "how did this happen???"
I dont think this is a bad thing. I think it helps keep me young. I take care of my buisness....my kids, my husband, my home....my dog! I do my thing....but in my heart.....I am still a carefree girl. Nothing wrong with that!